As i look at my ceiling i wonder with pain

why these thoughts of u never go away

i can feel my heart racing as i see your image in my head

i cant think nor breath it makes me feel dead

my skin goes pail and my eyes go white

i cant fight this feeling and i dont feel alright

my body lays lifeless there on the bed

with a picture of u and words unsaid

everything goes black and i cant see no more

heavens gates await as i step near the door

i look back and still think of your image and the words left alone

this was it and i cant go back rest peacefully die alone

my eyes open and still lying there looking at the ceiling feeling the feelings i felt

my wrist bruised and cut and as i stair at it more

covering these thoughts with the sleeve of my jacket

yet u never even knowing what ever happend

as i look at u from a distance never saying my hearts desires

i put my fake smile to make it seem im alright you........i admire